ALIVE

it's been a long while since I've

felt the pleasure of rain on my skin

feelings weren't what they used to be

and I was not who I once was

with alcohol in my bloodstream

and nicotine in my lungs

I forgot what I wanted

but here I was, standing in the rain

and all I could think about

was the sensation it gave me

as it dropped onto my skin

this was it - not another sleepless night

not another empty promise made to myself

I felt it, the rain above me falling to the ground

I felt everything, and for the first time in a year

I knew this was my new beginning

alive is what I was, with every piece of me

and in that moment I didn't remember my past

every bad thing became ash from the fire that I was

and I did not apologize, for I was finally me again

#poetry #poem #love #selflove